5 Frankie says Relax

Today's Sisterhood post was talking about stress and the need to relax. I know a lot of us have been overwhelmed and stressed lately, so I wanted to share a saying a good friend (who I lovingly call my fairy god-mother) once told me.

All is well.
Everything is working out for my highest good.
Out of this situation, only good will come.
I am safe.

I'm a planner by nature, so it's really hard for me not to try to control things.  But I am trying to do a little more everyday and enjoy each day for what it is instead of worrying about what tomorrow may bring.  God has a bigger plan for me and I really don't think he would like me trying to schedule my life so much!  

Speaking of tomorrow...it will be a fun day of relaxation and fun!  It's my friends Bachlorette party and I am soo excited for some spa, shopping, and girl time!  Have a great weekend...and relax while you are at it!
 

13 You Capture-Spring

Right now the only blooms at our house start like this

and end up like this

It's ok though, because as long as the skies look like this

I know more blooms will be coming!

What part of Spring did you capture this week?  Stop over and share with Beth at I Should be Folding Laundry!

8 I can be in control of my destiny

It has been a rough couple of weeks for me, and along the way the scale has crept back up.  Add a business trip (which I choose to translate to free dessert with every meal) to the mix and you have one fluffy lady! I don't feel good and have lost that spring in my step.  Something has got to change.  And last night something clicked.

Watching The Biggest Loser last night, the story of D (the one who walked with O'Neil) really struck a chord with me.  She talked about how her Mom passed away at 56 and her family had a history of high blood pressure and diabetes, but she was going to change that and break the cycle.  My Mom died at the age of 56, having obesity and other health problems for the majority of her adult life.  I will be turning 33 this summer and it scares the hell out of me (pardon) to think of only having 23 years left on this earth!  Especially if I become a mother.

After my mom passed I had a fire inside of me to get healthier for her, I owed it to her to live a long and healthy happy life since she wasn't able to.  That is still in my heart, but now I have been energized with the fact that I want to do it for me.  I know I can lose weight, I just need to get back on track and refocus.  Everyone can cheer you on but until you have that feeling inside of yourself to push you to make the change, it won't happen.  I got that feeling last night....and it feels great.

It feels good to know that I have made the decision to start living for me again.  Taking it one day at a a time, and right now one hour at a time...but I know I will get back into the swing of things again soon and be back on my way to being healthy again.  I often tend to be a cheerleader for others before I cheer myself up.  I'm working on that and it isn't easy, I end up feeling selfish alot of the time.  But something switched last night and I felt like I wanted to prove everyone wrong who has thought that I can't change how my future will be.  I can....and I am going to start TODAY.

So enter the latest Shrinking Jeans challenge and just at the right time!  

(how do these ladies and gent know!)

So for the next 21 days I am going to focus on:

1) Taking my vitamins everyday. 

2) Drinking at least 2 liters of water everyday

3) NO sneaking food.  (This is a dangerous habit that I have gotten back into over the last few weeks, like it doesn't count if no one sees me.  Yeah, that's obviously a lie.)

*Thank you all so much for your support thru my downhill slide, I have tried to keep up with some of you thru Twitter and your blogs.  Your sweet emails and comments have meant the world to me.  I know we all struggle at times, but when I am down  I feel like not wanting to pollute everyone else's clean water with my yuck.  But that often is when you need it the most.

2 Cell Phone Mosaics-times two

This week I am happy to bring you TWO cell phone mosaics.   Click on each picture to head over to Picasa where you can read and see a little more about how my week went.

First one is of my trip I took last week to Kentucky.

The second one is my normal Saturday mosaic.

Stop over and visit Ace and see how her weekend was...she has 2 mosaics this week too!

2 I'm baaack!

Hello bloggy friends!  Did you miss me? Did you even notice I was gone?  I've been traveling for work since Wednesday.  Got back Friday night and spent Saturday enjoying time with my husband and Emma.  Spent yesterday cleaning the house that had been neglected for the last week.  So I haven't had a chance to post much but will be updating the blog tonight with not one but TWO cell phone mosaics one from my trip and another from Saturday. (Thanks for the idea Ace, I'm totally copying from you!)

So check back later and once I get caught up on emails and such, I will get them up...hopefully this evening.  I hope you all had a great weekend and have a wonderful week!

6 Lucky

I spent a little time walking around the backyard with Emma last Thursday after work. 

I often look down in hopes of finding a 4 leaf cover. 

Never found one. 

But I did find a 5 leaf clover!  Is that even luckier then finding a 4 leaf one?  I think so!

3 Saturday Cell Phone Mosiac

What a great Saturday!  Nothing on the calender, no events, just me and my husband enjoying the day together.  We took our time getting up, enjoyed some breakfast before heading out to Jo-Anns and Target.  We also drove by a huge warehouse that they are going to be demolishing soon, it was an old appliance factory so you know there are probably tons of old machinery and appliances and old tags.  It makes me sad to think of a main structure being gone from the skyline.  Afterwards we came back and started trying to organize our music from the broken hard drive intot the new one by artist...so that took a few hours.  We ended the night picking up Chinese for dinner and then watched Premonition.

I have been having a rough week, lots of heaviness and overthinking.  I must say yesterday was good for my soul, I felt more love and serenity yesterday then I have in a long time....and it felt great!  Its all around me, I just need to let it in.

Click on the above image to follow me thru my Saturday.
Then go visit Ace and see what everyone else was up to this weekend!

14 You Capture-Fresh

Even though they only last a few days, a fresh magnolia bloom is one of the most beautiful things about Spring. Touches of pink brighten up even the darkest of days.

6 Weigh-In Wednesday

Time to weigh in for the Spring Fling Challenge.  It has been a rough week for me, I was on track up until Monday, then....I hit a wall. I mentally and emotionally hit a tall brick wall.  My spirit is muted, my energy is zapped, I miss my Mom and I am stressed about some personal stuff.

A lot of stuff processing thru my brain and heart, and I guess I just haven't been able to process it the right way.  As a result I have turned to food for comfort, something I thought I had a better handle on.  Apparently not.

Here are my numbers from this morning:

Last Week: 151.4 lbs

This Week: 154.4 lbs

Current Loss: 3 lb gain

Challenge Total: -1.2 lbs

SUCK!

Some shimmers of light in my murky waters:
*My cousin welcomed her baby girl Sunday morning.  Aubrey Madisyn was 5 lbs 14 oz on her due date! She should be going home today.  So sweet!
*I signed up for WW e-tools, and of course there's an app for that...so I can use that on my phone to better track my food and exercise.  I like it so far!

I haven't been around much because I didn't want to spread my funk to anyone else.  I'll be back around...I just hope its sooner rather then later and that I have answers or at least better direction when I do!

3 Saturday Cell Phone Mosiac

Click on the above image to follow me thru my Saturday. 
Then go visit Ace and see what everyone else was up to this weekend!

11 Weigh-In Wednesday

It's Wednesday...time to weigh in for the Spring Fling Challenge.If you read my earlier post about the CUPCAKE experience, I wasn't looking forward to stepping on the scale.  I did see a loss when I WI at WW last night, so that kinda gave me some hope.

Here are my numbers from this morning:

Last Week: 151.8 lbs

This Week: 151.4 lbs

Current Loss: .4 loss

Challenge Total: -4.2 lbs

I am thrilled to have had a loss after eating soo many sweets this weekend.  I didn't have even one Reese Egg, but as you can see filled it with other kinds of sugar.  I am hoping that the loss sticks and doesn't creep back to me next week.  I am chugging water so I really think that has helped flush out a lot of the extra bloat.

It's been an uber busy week, haven't had any time to check in on blogs since Saturday, so if I haven't posted I will be by, just might be this weekend before I get caught up.  Hope everyone has a great day, stop over and share your scale story at Shrinking Jeans.

7 True Confessions Tuesday

My confession has a first name, it's

C-U-P-C-A-K-E

My confession has a second name, it's

B-U-T-T-E-R-C-R-E-A-M

F-R-O-S-T-I-N-G

{ohhh...maaa...gaaa...they were sooo good}

*but of course I felt sooo bad after realizing I had eaten 6 of these between Saturday and Sunday

4 Saturday Cell Phone Mosiac-Easter Edition

(Click on the picture below to pull up my Picasa album and flip thru each image.)

From SCPM April 3, 2010

Happy Easter weekend everyone!  It was so nice to have a long weekend, that extra day off was great!  Hubby went to Cleveland to watch a friend play a show, I didn't end up getting to sleep until about 3 in the morning, so I enjoyed sleeping in late this morning.  Sit out on the patio for about an hour before the guys got up, beautiful breezy morning.  Ran a few errands, including searching for creamer and gathering ingredients to make Easter cupcakes, then came back home got my bake on, had some dinner and ended the night watching the Final Four games.  I was going to crack open some wine, but tummy isn't feeling very well so I'll save it for another time.

Now run and check out what Ace and friends were up to this weekend at If You Think Round is Funny.