Gulp...here we go....this isn't going to be pretty. I almost didn't write this, actually started and stopped a few times, feeling like a failure for what I am about to share. But I guess that's why I am making myself do this. I'm holding myself accountable.Cause and Effect baby...here is a perfect example.
I have gained 10 lbs since April 7th. Oh, I need to say that a little louder?
I have gained 10 lbs since April 7th.
Seriously....did I really gain 10 lbs? I knew I felt bigger and my clothes were getting tighter...but 10 lbs? Yes, Little Ladybug....you are up10 lbs. So much for being so close to that next decade...you have crossed into another one in the wrong direction!
There are a number of things I could say caused this gain over the past month. Feeding the emotions of missing my Mom with sweets and an extra helping at dinner. Bachlorette Parties and Weddings and get-togethers with friends. Finding out that I am not pregnant like I so desperately was hoping I was. Feeling frustrated that I have slipped so far that I am higher then I was at the start of this year. Blurgh.
Seeing this number on the scale made me realize, it all boils down to 3 things.
*I have not exercised at all. Unless you count the one mile I walked for Run a Mile days. My HRM thinks I have disappeared off the face of the earth.
*I am not counting calories/points in any way. I'm guessing I have been regularly am eating over 2500 calories (like 50 WW pts) a day, sometimes probably double that.
*I am not focusing on myself. I need to take some time out of everyday to journal, blog or reflect on how my day went and what I plan on doing to make tomorrow a good day.
So I am starting a personal challenge, along with a dear friend of mine. I am planning on going to Chicago to visit her in Mid-August. I would love to lose 15 lbs by then. I have finally convinced myself that I deserve to take a vacation just for me, and I want to feel good while I am there. So during the next few weeks, you will probably all get tired of seeing more weightloss related posts, but bear with me I NEED to do this to get back on my journey. Thank you all for your support, I have no excuses.
