4 Weigh-in Wednesday

Thank goodness I have the Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans to keep me accountable...I needed them more than they realized this week!  I had a loss of .2 this week...but I was sooo close to reporting a big gain!  Let me elaborate.

I have been off track for almost the entire month of October.  The scale has fluctuated up and down and I stopped doing C25K when my knee started to ache, and never started back up again.  Well this weekend, when I stepped on the scale I almost cried.  It read 149.6!  Seriously?  Yeah...seriously.  I had gained 7 lbs since October 7th....that made me feel pretty shitty.  So I made a pact to refocus and start back on my journey to reaching my goal weight.  I am not happy at this weight...so I need to do something about it and quit belly-aching!

This morning the scale read 146.4, down .2 from last week.  It's down a few lbs of bloat from this weekend (thank goodness) but still far from where I was a month ago.  But I will get back there...and hope to do it by the end of the Shrink-A-Versary Challenge!  Initially I wanted to be under 140...but I will be happy if I get back to 142.  Anything else after that is just icing on the cake.

So thank you all for the kind words of support on my realization post, I will continue to lean on you for support and general ass-kicking to stay on track this time.  I can do this....I've already lost 40 lbs...the next 20 is possible!  I started walking again this week and I realized how much I missed it!

How was your week?  Come share your story with the Sisterhood.

6 Focus on the here and now...stop thinking about what-ifs

 Ugh, time for a confession post....this is gonna hurt...but the truth normally does.

I haven't been taking care of myself for the last few weeks.  I have been eating whatever I wanted basically and lounging more than normal.  I have been selfish and thinking that the stars were going to align for me and bless us with a pregnancy the very first month of being off birth control pills.

I have gotten away from tracking all my calories and measuring my foods, strayed from planning my meals and making sure I got all my water in, and haven't worked out 4-5 days a week in well over 3 weeks. 3 weeks!  I feel like I will have to start C25K all over again, I can't imagine running for 3 minutes at a time right now!

WTF!  How did I let myself get so far away from the plan?


I have changed my tracking to temps, opks and symptoms instead of calories, menus and pounds.  My spreadsheets were telling me different things about my body, but while I was doing this I slipped away from tracking what I was putting into my body and how my body was reacting to it.  It was such a part of my life, but somehow I strayed away from putting it all in writing.

And for me seeing it in writing, staring at me from my computer screen is what works for me.  I need to see how it all adds up, and just because I haven't been tracking it for the last few weeks doesn't mean it hasn't been adding up on my body.  And I can feel it.  Amazing how different I feel with 3 lbs added to my body that I know are made fully of fluff.  There's no new muscles to blame it on, no water retention, just fluff and sugar and fat...straight up.

So I am going to start tracking my food and exercise over here.  I'm not expecting anyone to follow it, but if you do happen to swing by, feel free to give me your thoughts on things that might be missing or ways to make better use of my calories.  I just need to see it in writing....to have something to look back at when the scale tells me something I wasn't expecting and say...oh yeah, that's why.

I am going to do this...because the better health I am in, the better place I will be if we are blessed with a pregnancy.  I owe it to myself to focus on me for the next few months and do all that I can to make myself healthy and happy.

25 You Capture - REAL LIFE

Beth couldn't have picked a better subject this week....at least for me!

My best friend had twin girls this weekend....Alexis and Kenzie arrived 4 hours apart early on Saturday morning.  I went to visit them last night...and they are perfect! 

They came in weighing 5 lbs 5oz and 5 lbs 11 oz...they were born at 37 weeks. What beautiful examples of life!

 

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 Yesterday my husband heard the dog barking....looked outside and this is what he saw.

 

Guess the guy was thirsty!  He stomped 2 holes in our net before sticking his head thru to get a drink.  My husband watched him for a few minutes before he just sauntered away.  I love seeing such raw examples of life right out my front door!

What happened in your real life this week?  Stop over and share with everyone at You Capture!

7 Weigh-in Wednesday

Ugh, time for weigh in.  As you can probably sense, I am not really looking forward to it this morning.  I am down .2 this week which I will take with a smile.  Not much…but I am shocked to see its not up 2 lbs.  Mainly because I may or may not have been eating everything in sight this last week-including caramel apple pie, pizza and regular soda-on multiple occasions.  Gasp!

It has been a rough week, and I haven’t made the best choices, except for finishing my 5K on Saturday (yeah me!).  So I’m moving onto a fresh week, hoping to keep my cravings in check and see a bigger loss next week.

Today I am wearing my “Courage” necklace that Christie sent me from her Etsy shop.  I love it and now have  a visual reminder that even though the road may be bumpy, I need to have the courage to make it thru these tough times in order to prepare myself for sunny days ahead!  It's not supposed to be easy....that's why we have to work for it.  Note to self...start working for it!

How was your week? Stop over and share your story at The Sisterhood!

***PS-I am starting to realize that my focus on fertility is taking over my focus on weight loss....I need to keep them both in check.  Being successful at weight loss will only help my journey to becoming a mother.  I can have both right?

12 My 5K Experience

Saturday morning I got up bright and early (well for a Saturday anyway) to prepare myself for my first 5K.  The Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans put the challenge out for everyone to join in this weekend in support of World Run Day.There wasn't a 5K around my town, so I pledged to make my own!  Our neighborhood oval is just over a mile long...so I planned to do it three times and call it a 5K...close enough right?  I got up put on my workout clothes and Polar HRM, did some stretches and was ready to go!

I started the walk....which I guess this is a good time to interject that I had initially thought I would do intervals of running/walking, but once I got started my knee was still a little tweaky so I made the decision not even to attempt to run any of it because I was afraid that I felt too much pain I would give up...and this day wasn't about giving up.

So I went ahead and walked my first mile...it was quiet in the neighborhood, only passed maybe 3 houses with people picking up their paper or raking leaves.  Into the second mile I thought, wow...I haven't EVER walked more than 2 miles...this is going to ROCK!  I was feeling a little lethargic, but knew I had to do it.  When I crossed the line (my driveway) where I was starting my 3rd and final lap, I looked up to the front door to see my husband and dog standing there looking for me!  I gave him the thumbs up and mouthed 2 down...one more!  He smiled and gave me the thumbs up!  That lifted my spirits to push thru the last mile with more gusto then the first.

Last mile went pretty quick, by this time the sun had started to come out a little more and I had a little sweatshimmer going on.  I got back to my driveway and my love was waiting to take my picture as I crossed the finish line! 

I did it....my first 5K!  Even if it wasn't a "real" 5K...it was to me.  I did it, nobody helped me and I didn't make excuses.  I did it...and I felt great!  Thanks to my beloved HRM, I was able to track my lap times.  1st lap was 18:37, 2nd was 18:07 and the final was 17: 34!  Its supposed to get better each lap...and mine did!  Rock on!  Burnt 438 calories and reached my goal of finishing in less than an hour.  I bet that by more than 5 minutes!

I now have a starting point, and I pledge that my next 5K whether it be organized or not...will be even better.  But this one, knowing that I was doing it along with dozens of other women and men all across the country, will always hold a special place in my heart.  I did it.

20 You Capture - ANYTHING!

Thought maybe we all could use a reminder of summer now that the chill has started to set in for most of us in the North.  All these lilies are now absent from my backyard,  but the memory of their vibrant orange color will stay with me all year long.

Feeling silly at our Halloween Wienie Roast on Saturday.  Remember when you thought it was the coolest thing ever when you figured out how to make it look like you were holding fire?

Stop over and see what everyone is sharing at You Capture this week.

10 Weigh-in Wednesday

Time for the first weigh-in of the Shrinking Jeans Extravaganza! If you haven’t stopped by to check on the awesome prizes they are giving away DAILY…then you need to go get on board!

This week the scale was at 146.8. Down .6 from last week, so it’s moving in the right direction. Got back on track and started exercising again this week after a 2 week hiatus. Felt good to burn some calories again! I need to up my water intake, thinking I’ve slacked off a bit too much, barely finishing a liter while at work.

If you recall, the Sisterhood is taking part in a Virtual 5K this weekend in support of World Run Day. I will just be doing it around my neighborhood which is just over a mile. Main Goal for this 5K is to finish the in under an hour if I walk the whole thing and under 45 minutes if I run/walk. My knees have been bothering me after the last few times I ran, so I have been walking 2 miles a day this week. We’ll see where I end up on Saturday!

How was your week? Stop over and share your story at The Sisterhood!